I Can't Take It Anymore!

HUH..i hate myself..i hate what i have,i hate my attitude,i hate my style,i hate all of mine!I HATE IT ALL!!damn!i can't take it anymore..iam a gurl,but my family treat me as a BOY!my bro beat me,my mum mock on me,my stepdad also!errgghh!ak tawu ak jahat,ak banyak buat silap..korang igt ak mintak ke ak jadi nakal macam ni?tak!TIDAKKK pahamm!ak tak mintak weyy!ak da terbiasa hidup macam WILD WEST LIFE tawu tak!!huh..smoke,overnite,tu sume da biasa n perkara biasa bagi ak!korang jugakk yg bagi mula2 kan?bila ak da terbiasa korang nak marah2 pulak pehal?korang maki2 ak,korang pukul ak?igt ak leh berubah ke?TAK!korang silap k!ak da besar!korang pukul ak pon tak guna la..ak leh memberontak suda!ak da leh pikir mana baik n mana buruk tawu!ak tak salahkan kaw abg pukul ak..ak tawu i deserve that..but mum n dad,iam so sorry,i can't change my attitude!this is me!this is a real NORSHILA BTE MD YUNUS is!accept it,or u throw me far3 away from all of you!i still can survive!thank you so much!