Mr Shawty Baby Naughty, Iam Bloody!

My HEART, My Soul, My King Of HEART.. WTF!!?I am still deeply in love my ex-boyfriend and i just don't know what to do. we were together for 6 months.We actually live right down the street a few houses away and so that was really beneficial at the time, but not anymore.While we were dating he said i was the only and perfect girl for him and he was the first to say he loved me. it wasn't puppy love, it was so true. nothing that i've ever felt before. he always said how beautiful and how much he loved and cared for me. he said he always wanted to be with me forever and i felt exactly the same. everyone said we were perfect together and it was so true.but about 4 months into our relationship everything changed. i went on a trip with my family for about 1 weeks and i missed him so much and he changed a lot. he still cared for me, but he would used to ditch his friends, on his own accord, and hang with me but then he wouldn't do that anymore so we weren't together as much.a month after that we broke up which i thought would be good. we said we would stay friends, but we haven't really. i don't want to initiate the talking because i don't want to ruin anything but i also don't want to sit here and sulk.From what i've heard from his friends he doesn't do that much with his friends like he blows them off.i don't know what is happening to him, maybe he misses me or maybe something else but i can't take that everywhere i go i see something that reminds me of him and it just hurts me even more. i don't know what to do because i know if he ended up with another girl i would just die, and i've tried dating other guys but i just can't i feel like i'm betraying him and i just don't have interest in them, i really have tried, honestly.

p/s: i'll never stop posting about you every single day till i get another to replaced you BABI! ;(